I found this gem on Pinterest and it made me stop and think. I have been indulging myself in a bit of a pity party for a couple of months now. No one thing has put me in my little woe is me fun fest but rather it has been an accumulation of things. I have lots of personality traits (or flaws depending on your point of view) that serve as enablers for trips on the Pity Train.
Even though I know that my personality quirks are there I ignore them. I take things on whether or not I can handle them. I don't like to ask for help. I keep pushing through exhaustion and pain, because otherwise the chronic conditions win. I forget to live and enjoy the moment rather than just get through it so that I can move on to the next thing on my never ending list. And then out of nowhere I am flat on my back and wallowing in self pity.
Yeah, brought it on all by myself and now it is time to give myself a good swift kick in the behind because the Pity Train is no fun and I am so tired of not having fun. It is time to pick myself up, figure out the health issues AGAIN (and that is a huge pain in the backside, but at least I still have the ability to advocate for myself), go back and start over and hopefully end up where I want to be. At my age one would think I would have this routine down - NOPE still learning. I guess that goes to that stubborn streak of mine.
So dear world you have been warned - my fight is coming back and it is time for me to get over this little pity party and move on. Wish me luck.